What is death?

Death is a word for emptiness where life once bloomed. It is a word to symbolize leaving. Death is a word of fear and sometimes hope and means something different to everyone else. It can sometimes hold a key or be a closed door. No matter what way you look at it death is an end. Death can sometimes be referred to an animal. It sneaks up on some like a predator. Other believe it leaves signs when it is time to go, but then why do people die so young and leave so many people behind. The dead look funny. They don't look human. Their eyes are glassy and fogged over. Their hair looks like worn string that has been left behind. Plus, their bodies can be pale grey or white making them look alien. Sometimes they are bent in weird ways, but I always find it weird to think of how to bend them back to straight. I mean couldn't you break their bones or something it just seems kind of rude. Well death is kind of rude in general because it takes people's lives so sudden. I mean all I can think about is all the people who are left here on Earth to say "yes I know her" or "It happened so sudden." Think of how they feel now trying to cope because they didn't know it would happen so fast. Death should just leave a note on their porch or something warning them that something was about to go down like "Billy's not coming home today" or something like that. But I know people in this world, people would fight it and some Final Destination stuff would happen. When you think about it would you fight it. If you knew that every time you saved them they would die worse. I don't know because I haven't really been in this spot. My grandmother died about a year ago and it was kind of sad to say I don't really miss her. I never really saw her because she was always working. My parents kept saying "It's ok to cry", but I really didn't feel like crying. So eventually at her funeral I watched her slideshow just to build up some tears because I can be an easy crier. The guilt was eating me alive! I guess that what guilt does which leads us back to death. Some people die because of a reason or guilt and they are usually the young age ones. You know the ones who don't say goodbye. The part that makes me angry is because a lot of these could be preventable like in Thirteen reasons why. In the book they talk about why she died and the whole time she had people who she could talk to, but just didn't. I mean why would you ever want to not tell someone. Maybe because you think you would burden them, but from my experience you usually don't. Well I can't really complain because I have been in this situation and I guess from her side sometimes it hard to see who wants to help and who wants to hurt you, but for god's sake one of her reasons is about how this boy she liked was so nice to her and wanted to know what was wrong. People say death is unforgiving and I don't really get that. Eventually we all forget about our memories which is a sad thought really. I can see myself at a funeral promising I will never forget, but in the end I do. I mean we all do because in the end you wont remember something that left long ago no matter how much you loved it. Death is grief, but eventually it leads to new roads which is the saddest part because what if I don't want to go on with life. People say life goes on, but what if I never let it.